Thursday, January 11, 2007

Somewhat lonesome

So I haven’t been updating my blog much lately, probably because I’ve been busy since I’ve start working 2 months ago and also studying for this few exams I have this semester and hopefully it will be my last as well.
Haven’t been complaining much, the year started well for me family, and financially wise as for personal life I’m not sure yet things have been so mixed up for me and I guess I’ve been going through the stage of being lonesome or maybe feeling lonly

Some on said “loneliness is the worst of all evils. Unlike hunger, thirst and illness, which force us to take an attitude when they affect us, loneliness is often masked under an aura of virtue and renunciation.”


But then The worst is feeling alone while you’re surrounded by many people, people you know, people you don’t know, people you care about, people you don’t care about. People you love and people you hate.

My feeling alone is almost at a close, and I must say that I feel a little split between it being a waste and it feeling like what my soul needed; moments to sit back and take a mental inventory. Time to reflect on my life and bounce ideas off of myself.

Maybe it is that I miss being in love

Maybe I miss all of the comfort that it comes with. I miss the small nuances and epic emotions that flood my being. I miss having the certainty that being in love provides. I miss the sanctuary it gives. I miss the holding hands… I’m afraid I’ve grown to fear love and those fishing with it’s utterance. I am afraid that I might never know what being in love again is. Maybe nobody ever really does; or maybe it’s just that love is so different from one person to the next.



Ahhh lonliness brings such lonesome feelings ...

9 comments:

Abufares said...

Hi Soraya

I miss your posts...
Although you might be feeling a little down you're bound to come out of it eventually. I hope soon.
Meanwhile, take good care of yourself and never worry.
You'll be alright.

Sam... said...

Hello Soraya,

Keep ur faith, life is good times and bad times.
we go through the bad ones by patience and by looking forward to the good ones.
till then take care of yourself....
and keep smiling...

Anonymous said...

there is something that can be even worse....feeling lonely while being in love....

GraY FoX said...

hmmmm
hope ur happiness will come over to kill your lonliness
so we can enjoy cheerful posts again :D

Yazan said...

musik,
i cant put it in a better way.

I wish i have that positive energy that abufares is able to spread...

nothing can replace that feeling of safety. i know.

it's so much easier to sense love when it had already stormed u once... i keep teeling that to myself.

weezkwear said...

You have to knock at many wrong gates before you finally reach the right one. You are experiencing life that many people dont get the chance for. Keep the cheer alive because what you find attractive in the other is already there in you. Let it flow out.

yaser said...

every now and then one feels lost and alone in this world,especially when you are away from the person u love ,
remember that friends are always there for u to cheer u up ;)

Syrianita said...

Thanks , you guys for the support and concern I’m really feeling better Now :)

Anonymous said...

Muzic,how you could feel lonely while you're in love? The mind is never lonely, the other's always there.