........sigh.........



Life can be a bitch sometimes...!!!

But after all we can’t get whatever we wish for in life, otherwise it won’t be life

I LOVE YOU

I’ve always thought falling in love is hard, I’ve always took my time before falling in love again, I mean you can’t meet someone and suddenly decide that you are in love with him!!! But I guess people tend to overflow themselves with the chance of meeting and greeting and be indiscreet with new faces, So then you get to explore the possibilities of these new relationships, be whoever you want and with whomever you want, however you want - why go back to a blur relationship? Yes inventing one or reinventing a relationship in the context you like to be in…god why do I always have to Itfalsaf
So I met this amazing guy went out for a couple of times, and from what went on I guess we just clicked, time went by and yes I totally like him a lot but…
yes yes there’s always a damn but
I don’t want to go into details, but its either him or me that is mortified of showing emotions, I admit I do have feelings for him I tried to show him but I get no respond, so then I backward and pause, then he totally freaks out of my reaction then I become confused, and those butterflies in my stomach really aches I thought of waiting , but am tired of waiting, and the I LOVE YOU word is always on the tip of my tong, so I’m going to do this over here, hoping that one day you gonna read it…I Love you precious lover, partner, friend :)

History and the Nation

By the side of a rivulet that meandered among the rocks at the foot of Lebanon's Mountain sat a shepherdess surrounded by her flock of lean sheep grazing upon dry grass. She looked into the distant twilight as if the future were passing before her. Tears had jeweled her eyes like dew-drops adorning flowers. Sorrow had caused her lips to open that it might enter and occupy her sighing heart.
After sunset, as the knolls and hills wrapped themselves in shadow, History stood before the maiden. He was an old man whose white hair fell like snow over his breast and shoulders, and in his right hand he held a sharp sickle. In a voice like the roaring sea he said, "Peace unto you, Syria."
The virgin rose, trembling with fear. "What do you wish of me, History?" she asked. Then she pointed to her sheep. "This is the remnant of a healthy flock that once filled this valley. This is all that your covetousness has left me. Have you come now to sate your greed on that?
"These plains that were once so fertile have been trodden to barren dust by your trampling feet. My cattle that once grazed upon flowers and produced rich milk, now gnaw at thistles that leave them gaunt and dry.
"Fear God, oh History, and afflict me no more. The sight of you has made me detest life, and the cruelty of your sickle has caused me to love Death.
"Leave me in my solitude to drain the cup of sorrow- my best wine. Go, History, to the West where Life's wedding feast is being celebrated. Here let me lament the bereavement you have prepared for me."
Concealing his sickle under the folds of his garment, History looked upon her as a loving father looks upon his child, and said, "Oh Syria, what I have taken from you were my own gifts. Know that you sister-nations are entitled to a part of the glory which was yours. I must give to them what I gave you. Your plight is like that of Egypt, Persia and Greece, for each one of them also has a lean flock and dry pasture. Oh Syria, that which you call degradation is an indispensable sleep from which you will draw strength. The flower does not return to life save through death, and love does not grow except after separation."
The old man came close to the maiden, stretched forth his hand and said, "Shake my hand, oh Daughter of the Prophets." And she shook his hand and looked at him from behind a screen of tears and said, "Farewell, History, farewell." And he responded, "Until we meet again Syria, until we meet again."
And the old man disappeared like swift lightning, and the shepherdess called her sheep and started on her way, saying to herself, "Shall there be another meeting?"


Gibran Khalil Gibran

2008 Resolutions

Looking back on my last year I realized how full of activity it was. As a resolution I can straightforwardly say it was a comfortably busy one. Well no big achievements but not bad too it was a good year …lots of changes, traits and mentally wise. Being stable in my current job…been also a year since started it which is an achievement heh I tend to change jobs a lot.
Stared and ended a relationship. actually short term relationships aren’t really my type but that was it!!

Met lots of amazing people made good friendships, traveled 3 times in one year that’s cool too, Been to lots of events and concerts. Been working on my little private business hopefully it will flourish in the upcoming year.
I usually don’t write my new year resolutions but what the heck they always say write down what your aim for so you remember them,so my 10 resolutions for the new year are:


1. Quit smoking ( yea I say that every year but this year am gonna try for real)
2. fit in fitness
3. learn something new ( maybe a new language, maybe some new craft course, or even going back to learning Salsa)
4. get organized ( I’m a big mess no need to explain more)
5. fall in love (hmmmm no comment)
6. get involved in more activities
7. help others
8. go back to writing and blogging
9. enjoy my life and be thankful
10. give love to my family and friends



Well welcome 2008 goodbye 2007 wishing you all a blissful and perfect year

Looking back...

you ask me if i loved the man
unworthey as you say he was
it seems to me i did my friend
without much reason or a good because
and oh my friend how much pain
he inflicted on my heart
without ever looking back
what a devil was that man
what an evil sort of sprite!!!
but was he really all those things?
was he quite as vile as that?
then why is it that i loved him?
sitting here, and looking back...

Hands off Facebook

Again as a result of apathy and uncontrolled authoritarianism another site was censored in Syria the famous Facebook. Which is a peaceful social networking site that gathered millions of subscribers all around the world. The reason of censorship is still unknown
When they’ll understand that censorship or banning sites wont stop the people of speaking up their minds!!!! And no matter what they do there’s always a way to access it…who the hell are they fooling??
I demand to take action and protest against the censorship of all sites!

Take your hands off Facebook!!!

Read more on: Decentering Damascus: Syrian against censored Syria

On Love...

I know I've been away from my blog for a while and I hate to see it like that. So deserted . Although I've been in full energy… moved a lot, worked like a mule, seen lots of people, attended many events, but I couldn't manage to put my fingers to type….I've been thinking lately about love…what are the standers for finding the true love of your life???? I actually didn’t find an answer to that question
The quality of true love is highly debated among different people. Some people
Believe true love relies on rules or that it simply does not exist. However, true love is an Unconditional love between two people, when two people love each other for who They are. Not what they have or what they give....


I used to think that once you fall in love. You will only love that person for the rest of you life but it turns out to be a big bully. Time is able to make you forget all about your past love and again you find your self in love…and so on, you love once and twice and trice so I guess there's no stander for being in love once and forever. And you discover new things about love every time you fall in love…unfortunately for me there wasn't no happy endings. We are all in this holy search of love so we experience many kinds of it,,, I admit I hardly can fall in love but once I'm there, there is no turning back for me I fight I sacrifice I give I Cherish I go head over heels.
To me, love is not just a feeling, but it is the way that people treat the ones they care for. People should treat the ones they love so considerately. Love, in my eyes, is making that sacrifice for someone, knowing that it might be regretful sooner or later. Love is how a person makes another person feel when they are in their presence. Many people show or express their love for someone in different ways. No matter what the way is. Love is in the actions that a person makes, not the words that are said to them.


I once read something about three kinds of love…it is manifested in three ways, Eros, Philia and Agape.
The love between 2 persons is Named Eros, the sexual attarction Eros can manifest in 2 ways, the good way: when love between the two grows strong and they became dependent on one another and can't be apart, they build something together and they'll always be happy and satisfied with each other.
The bad way: when each part feels insecure and his freedom is restricted by the other part. Feeling that they sacrifice much. So Then Eros the spirit of love that unites the 2 parts will show the bad side of it.
Eros will not manifest the same to all people and no one can escape Eros everybody need his presence in life, sometimes Eros make us feel Depart from the whole world and isolated in loneliness.

Philia is the love under the form of friendship or brotherhood its what you feel toward other people. When the flame of Eros starts to fade Philia maintain the family united.

Agape is the highest manifestation of love, Agape is total love, love that devour the ones whose living it. Who experience and know Agape will see that nothing in this life is more important than love. This's the love that God feel for his people. Love that can change the history of human kind.

We people won't feel that higher love; but we may experience another form of Agape. Life might sound unfair for some of us but the love that devour can make absolutely anything sound unimportant.
(Agape is the Love that devour)
Luther king said once: that when Jesus said that we must love our enemy he was referring to Agape. Because according to him its impossible to love our enemies who makes us suffer, Agape is higher than love it’s a feeling that can fill every gap in this world.

The other form of Agape that people feel usually is the feeling of Enthusiasm and ecstasy.
Enthusiasm is agape toward an Idea or anything that we went thorough. When we love and believe from our deepest souls in something we feel the strongest and an immense serenity that comes from our pledge that nothing will put off our beliefs. This force makes us take the right decisions at the right time, and when we reach our target we feel amazed by our own power because in a fight for righteousness nothing can stand in our way. We are simply guided by our Enthusiasm.

I wish we all have the ability to be guided by that higher love in life
Now going back to the true love; I think True love is exhilarating, confusing, emotional, exhausting, and full of give and take.