Somewhat lonesome

So I haven’t been updating my blog much lately, probably because I’ve been busy since I’ve start working 2 months ago and also studying for this few exams I have this semester and hopefully it will be my last as well.
Haven’t been complaining much, the year started well for me family, and financially wise as for personal life I’m not sure yet things have been so mixed up for me and I guess I’ve been going through the stage of being lonesome or maybe feeling lonly

Some on said “loneliness is the worst of all evils. Unlike hunger, thirst and illness, which force us to take an attitude when they affect us, loneliness is often masked under an aura of virtue and renunciation.”


But then The worst is feeling alone while you’re surrounded by many people, people you know, people you don’t know, people you care about, people you don’t care about. People you love and people you hate.

My feeling alone is almost at a close, and I must say that I feel a little split between it being a waste and it feeling like what my soul needed; moments to sit back and take a mental inventory. Time to reflect on my life and bounce ideas off of myself.

Maybe it is that I miss being in love

Maybe I miss all of the comfort that it comes with. I miss the small nuances and epic emotions that flood my being. I miss having the certainty that being in love provides. I miss the sanctuary it gives. I miss the holding hands… I’m afraid I’ve grown to fear love and those fishing with it’s utterance. I am afraid that I might never know what being in love again is. Maybe nobody ever really does; or maybe it’s just that love is so different from one person to the next.



Ahhh lonliness brings such lonesome feelings ...

Happy Holidays

May this holiday season be filled with peace and contentment for all.

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all the blessings and joy to you, your family and loved ones. And smiles rise on the faces of children suffering in Iraq, Palestine and all over the world.. Amen

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A very Merry Christmas to all of you

God bless

To the man in my life

I know we don’t speak to each other much, and I know we can be so distant sometimes not In presence but in sharing emotions ... even though you’ve been pampering me and I’ll always be your spoiled child , I know I’ll stay that little girl in your eyes.
I only want you to know a few things…


I honor and respect you so very much am so proud of you even though I may not have told you often enough.
You taught me the values of a family.
If not for you always being so patient i don’t know that I'd be as strong and capable of handling life
I always valued your opinions and sly comments even though I didn’t show that I do.
I know i never told you enough that I loved you but I think we both knew that we didn't need words to understand one another.

I remember that day when it was my birthday
And I went so upset because you haven’t remember it…and out of sudden I get this message from you saying” Happy Birthday to the best thing that happened in my life” Dad I burst into tears then…

I hope I can make you proud of me as I am so proud of you..

THANK YOU Father.
Thank you for everything you did for me
Thank you for all your love and concern you gave me
Thank you that you exist in my Life.


Happy Birthday Baba
الله يخليلي ياك و يطولي بعمرك يا أحسن أب بالدنية كلها....بحبك
Your loving daughter


P.S: I hope you wont browse a lot through my blog, there’s some stuff you shouldn’t read or know about hehe kidding I love you

With or without you...

Have you ever felt that you want to be with someone but at the same time you cannot.
Lots of reasons stands there … oh well just a passing by thought I cannot specify more…

See the stone set in your eyes

See the thorn twist in your side

I wait for you

Sleight of hand and twist of fate

On a bed of nails she makes me wait

And I wait without you

With or without you

Through the storm we reach the shore

You give it all but I want more

And Im waiting for you

With or without you

With or without you

I cant live

With or without you

And you give yourself away

My hands are tied

My body bruised, shes got me with

Nothing to win and

Nothing left to lose

With or without you

I cant live

With or without you

Lyrics by U2

Bara and Serjela

An Archeological Spot located in Mountain Al Zawyah to the southeast of Edleb with a distance of 34 km
and located to the southwest of Aleppo with a distance of 93km

its considered to be the largest collection of archeologic ruins that ascends from Roman Byzantine and Arab periods , some says that its historical founding’s ascends from even older epochs.




The name Bara was found engraved in a stone discovered in a monastery to the east of Bara , and according to some syriac scripts Bara was called Kafar Adberta .

some studies and researches pointed out that the oldest construction in it ascends to the Roman era A.D. second century.

When the Roman empire was spelt into 2 parts, Bara was to the east part of the empire
And it was transformed after wards into the Byzantine state .




Bara was a subordinate to the administration of Apamea ( Afamia) in the Byzantine era even though the relation with The Antioch was stronger.

In the year 614 A.D Bara as many other Syrian cities was subjected to the attacks of the Persians. and In the year 637 Arabs liberated Syria from the Byzantine Reign. The people of Bara was ruled then by The Arab reign and they had lots of privileges so their city prospered and extended. And as Bara was a well strategically set the Byzantines and also the Romans were always aiming to take control of it again. But finally in the Year 1148 was totally controlled by arabs and away from all foreign Danger.

We can find in Bara : wingers , churches, monasteries, cemeteries and tombs , fortes, Mosques, and lots of scripts.

Thank you

Thanks to all who remembered me and sent me greetings through emails. Sms’s, phone calls, and personally

Muhannad You were the 1st and you’ll always be the 1st in my life….
Farah you are more than a sister to me
Motaseem I cannot be mad with you for long… you made my day
Hasan and Saeed…I thank god there still is such amazing people like both of you my friends
Hamdi...can’t wait for you to get back
Samaw’al and Roeeya…thanks for being there
Nidal and Laila…you guys are the closest to my heart love ya…
Haya… even though you were late many thanks…I really miss ya like hell
Raniah…you can’t imagine my thrill hearing your voice from that distance…love you so much, you’re the best.
Diana…we can be so distant for a long time but also so close in just a glance. Thank u.
Andreea…I really wished you were here I miss you so so so much.
Petra….Please say you’ll be back before the new year I miss you
Abu Fares…its really an Honor for me to know such an extraordinary person.

Sam, Hadil, Majd, Sami, Ahmad, Ola and all whom I forgot to mention thanks form the bottom of my heart….

Life goes on!!!

So You lose someone so dear …so what life goes on!
You lost your money in bad business….so what life goes on!
You favorite team lost the game… so what life goes on!
You drop ketchup on your favorite dress… life goes on!
You didn’t pass the exam…life goes on!
You break up with your love one…life goes on!

The common comment that people leave….
But On the other hand

You see innocent people dying everyday…
Destruction within human hands
Sick children starving …
Hypocrites ruling the world…
Abhorrence and hatred among us…
Disasters and catastrophes…
Crimes Rape and murder …
Drugs, violence, diseases…


I wonder if life still goes on?
Is it Fair?