Emotions and Relationships

Those are 2 Quotes of two Noble Prize winners, that I found so deep and inspiring so loved to share them :


"All of us know a disease in Central Africa called sleeping sickness. What we need to know is that there is a similar disease that attacks the soul – and which is very dangerous, because it catches us without being noticed. When you notice the slightest sign of indifference and lack of enthusiasm for your similar, be on the alert!
The only way to take precautions against this disease is to understand that the soul suffers, and suffers a lot, when we make it live superficially. The soul likes things that are beautiful and profound”.

Professor Albert Schweitzer, physician and missionary



“At the beginning of our life and again when we get old, we need the help and affection of others. Unfortunately, between these two periods of our life, when we are strong and able to look after ourselves, we don’t appreciate the value of affection and compassion. As our own life begins and ends with the need for affection, wouldn’t it be better if we gave compassion and love to others while we are strong and capable?”

The Dali Lama

Bottom line…relationships are really difficult. and I mean here any relationship, friends coworkers, lovers…etc. Difficult In the same way that fire is necessary to put up with the disagreeable smoke which makes breathing hard, and causes tears to pour down one’s face. However, once the fire is alight, the smoke disappears and the flames light up everything around us spreading warmth, calm, and possibly making an ember pop out to burn us, but that is what makes a relationship interesting, isn’t that true?

I LOVE YOU

I’ve always thought falling in love is hard, I’ve always took my time before falling in love again, I mean you can’t meet someone and suddenly decide that you are in love with him!!! But I guess people tend to overflow themselves with the chance of meeting and greeting and be indiscreet with new faces, So then you get to explore the possibilities of these new relationships, be whoever you want and with whomever you want, however you want - why go back to a blur relationship? Yes inventing one or reinventing a relationship in the context you like to be in…god why do I always have to Itfalsaf
So I met this amazing guy went out for a couple of times, and from what went on I guess we just clicked, time went by and yes I totally like him a lot but…
yes yes there’s always a damn but
I don’t want to go into details, but its either him or me that is mortified of showing emotions, I admit I do have feelings for him I tried to show him but I get no respond, so then I backward and pause, then he totally freaks out of my reaction then I become confused, and those butterflies in my stomach really aches I thought of waiting , but am tired of waiting, and the I LOVE YOU word is always on the tip of my tong, so I’m going to do this over here, hoping that one day you gonna read it…I Love you precious lover, partner, friend :)

2008 Resolutions

Looking back on my last year I realized how full of activity it was. As a resolution I can straightforwardly say it was a comfortably busy one. Well no big achievements but not bad too it was a good year …lots of changes, traits and mentally wise. Being stable in my current job…been also a year since started it which is an achievement heh I tend to change jobs a lot.
Stared and ended a relationship. actually short term relationships aren’t really my type but that was it!!

Met lots of amazing people made good friendships, traveled 3 times in one year that’s cool too, Been to lots of events and concerts. Been working on my little private business hopefully it will flourish in the upcoming year.
I usually don’t write my new year resolutions but what the heck they always say write down what your aim for so you remember them,so my 10 resolutions for the new year are:


1. Quit smoking ( yea I say that every year but this year am gonna try for real)
2. fit in fitness
3. learn something new ( maybe a new language, maybe some new craft course, or even going back to learning Salsa)
4. get organized ( I’m a big mess no need to explain more)
5. fall in love (hmmmm no comment)
6. get involved in more activities
7. help others
8. go back to writing and blogging
9. enjoy my life and be thankful
10. give love to my family and friends



Well welcome 2008 goodbye 2007 wishing you all a blissful and perfect year

On Love...

I know I've been away from my blog for a while and I hate to see it like that. So deserted . Although I've been in full energy… moved a lot, worked like a mule, seen lots of people, attended many events, but I couldn't manage to put my fingers to type….I've been thinking lately about love…what are the standers for finding the true love of your life???? I actually didn’t find an answer to that question
The quality of true love is highly debated among different people. Some people
Believe true love relies on rules or that it simply does not exist. However, true love is an Unconditional love between two people, when two people love each other for who They are. Not what they have or what they give....


I used to think that once you fall in love. You will only love that person for the rest of you life but it turns out to be a big bully. Time is able to make you forget all about your past love and again you find your self in love…and so on, you love once and twice and trice so I guess there's no stander for being in love once and forever. And you discover new things about love every time you fall in love…unfortunately for me there wasn't no happy endings. We are all in this holy search of love so we experience many kinds of it,,, I admit I hardly can fall in love but once I'm there, there is no turning back for me I fight I sacrifice I give I Cherish I go head over heels.
To me, love is not just a feeling, but it is the way that people treat the ones they care for. People should treat the ones they love so considerately. Love, in my eyes, is making that sacrifice for someone, knowing that it might be regretful sooner or later. Love is how a person makes another person feel when they are in their presence. Many people show or express their love for someone in different ways. No matter what the way is. Love is in the actions that a person makes, not the words that are said to them.


I once read something about three kinds of love…it is manifested in three ways, Eros, Philia and Agape.
The love between 2 persons is Named Eros, the sexual attarction Eros can manifest in 2 ways, the good way: when love between the two grows strong and they became dependent on one another and can't be apart, they build something together and they'll always be happy and satisfied with each other.
The bad way: when each part feels insecure and his freedom is restricted by the other part. Feeling that they sacrifice much. So Then Eros the spirit of love that unites the 2 parts will show the bad side of it.
Eros will not manifest the same to all people and no one can escape Eros everybody need his presence in life, sometimes Eros make us feel Depart from the whole world and isolated in loneliness.

Philia is the love under the form of friendship or brotherhood its what you feel toward other people. When the flame of Eros starts to fade Philia maintain the family united.

Agape is the highest manifestation of love, Agape is total love, love that devour the ones whose living it. Who experience and know Agape will see that nothing in this life is more important than love. This's the love that God feel for his people. Love that can change the history of human kind.

We people won't feel that higher love; but we may experience another form of Agape. Life might sound unfair for some of us but the love that devour can make absolutely anything sound unimportant.
(Agape is the Love that devour)
Luther king said once: that when Jesus said that we must love our enemy he was referring to Agape. Because according to him its impossible to love our enemies who makes us suffer, Agape is higher than love it’s a feeling that can fill every gap in this world.

The other form of Agape that people feel usually is the feeling of Enthusiasm and ecstasy.
Enthusiasm is agape toward an Idea or anything that we went thorough. When we love and believe from our deepest souls in something we feel the strongest and an immense serenity that comes from our pledge that nothing will put off our beliefs. This force makes us take the right decisions at the right time, and when we reach our target we feel amazed by our own power because in a fight for righteousness nothing can stand in our way. We are simply guided by our Enthusiasm.

I wish we all have the ability to be guided by that higher love in life
Now going back to the true love; I think True love is exhilarating, confusing, emotional, exhausting, and full of give and take.

You think you know???

I'm sorry but I've been paralyzed not able to move not able to express my self
not able to think nor to write… So hollow and Intellectually Bankrupt.
After this phase I realized something which is:

we think we know everything about life; we are so sure how to handle it, but in fact we know nothing of it, we are totally ignorant .
For as long as I can remember I have looked for answers and tried to fit all the pieces together in a way that made sense and I could use myself.

And of course you do find answers if you really want to know and it did all start to make sense to me. But none of that really did me that much good.
everything I ever learnt brought me to one conclusion: That every tip, trick, idea, concept and piece of good advice is just one more piece of mind baggage that has to be let go of if we want to know what's Real. Not to know what's real intellectually - but to know it personally - to live it.

Well this conclusion can sound dispiriting. not many of us feel a limitless love inside and outside. We are disparately searching for it , We don't feel as we are the source of inspiration and life itself and capable of working miracles! But what im sure of is that everything in life happens for a reason.

All we can do is to get together and know what's real, how crazy it would be to think we could rediscover life again on our own….dinner parties, hanging out with a friend, exploring new things, a chance encounter with total stranger. An accidental coming together. We are all a part of this oneness of life.
Life that we will never understand 100% because it's so unpredictable. Well maybe it better left that way. And being alive is enough; I guess we are all perfect exactly how we are.




Love your self and love life

The Illusionist

He builds around you castles in the sun, awesome pictures, rainbows and butterflies
Fields of roses, rivers of silver, seas of gold and fairytales. things you would never dream about. Ever lasting love, immortality, passion, romance, wealth and lust,
He appears and insults expectations with the words you intended for praise and arouses unspoken suspicions
What is worse is that, you get pursuit by the illusions while you’re assuming that you created it, it holds a view contradictory: little sweet voices blooming, it’s insisting that it captured you. so damn insisting plagued in mind and soul.

Weak up its only illusions!!! But whom am I fooling?

My sweet liar
My beautiful lie.

One of a kind?!?!

I don’t want to sound stuck up or arrogant by this…but one day a friend of mine told me I’m one in a million…which really made me wonder am I really one in a million??
I mean I bet there’s thousands and thousands of others like me…what really makes me so special?
Well I know my friend told me that as a compliment…but what if I really want to be one in a million? would I sound so egotistic??
Furthermore What obvious scares me is that what if I’m not being my self and if I’m really my self that doesn’t mean there’s no one else like me …a leak of authenticity maybe?

Well there might be someone that carries the same thoughts as mine the same characteristics, Someone that likes to do the same things I do. Someone that got the same style as I do.
So what makes us so special??? How can we be unique if there’s so many people like us?
To wish to be unique is a universal human property. I think that The very existence of uniqueness is not dependent on the judgment of a group of humans.

I asked and so many have told me every human being is "special", one of a kind
But how’ in the world is that???
In other words, there are numerous characteristics and traits common to two specimen of the same species. On the other hand, there are characteristics and traits, which set them apart. But I am not talking here about characters and traits There must exist a quantitative point where it would be safe to say that there’s no difference between outweighs and similarity, the "Point of Uniqueness", in which all individuals are rendered unique.
So what’s the whole use of being unique if all others are too??

More over the worse is being compared to someone!!…I don’t know if it’s right or wrong
Or maybe its a complex …I don’t really know if I’m making any sense out of this either.

Errrrrr


updated:
I added a new mini poll so please be kind and vote on the same topic

I Love

I love the tiny wrinkles on your face when you smile
I love to listen to you closely as you speak and enjoy the little funny sounds that you make.
I love the way you engage your self trying to explain me something.
I love the sparkle in your eyes so full of love and alive.
I love that you finally showed me that you cared and sparked our desire to be together.
I love the way you held my hand providing comfort, and loving indication.

But what I really tend more to say is …

I love you

One year of blogging

Hurray my blog is officially one year old, one year ago on the same day I started this blog... Actually it came out unpredictable. I wasn't sure about the main theme of it. Syrian to the bone just popped out of my brain and there it was, I didn't know if someone ever gonna visit it or ever comment on my posts, so I was surprised to have that number of visitors. I know I haven't been an active blogger posting on a daily bases but I think what I posted so far I mean a total of 61 posts are not bad.

Well my blog is growing older so am I, I guess what you write is getting older too I mean Ithought get old too … aging thoughts turn to full circles errr what is that suppose to mean??!!!

Anywayzz After a year of blogging, it's natural to think about the aging process. I've been doing so since last year.

So I decided to take a blogthing test and see what age my heart is and it turns out that im 20 at heart so I guess im just living my age :) well for a 27 year old lady im still at twenties hehe.

Ehh Happy Anniversary my dear blog.

You Are 20 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

Somewhat lonesome

So I haven’t been updating my blog much lately, probably because I’ve been busy since I’ve start working 2 months ago and also studying for this few exams I have this semester and hopefully it will be my last as well.
Haven’t been complaining much, the year started well for me family, and financially wise as for personal life I’m not sure yet things have been so mixed up for me and I guess I’ve been going through the stage of being lonesome or maybe feeling lonly

Some on said “loneliness is the worst of all evils. Unlike hunger, thirst and illness, which force us to take an attitude when they affect us, loneliness is often masked under an aura of virtue and renunciation.”


But then The worst is feeling alone while you’re surrounded by many people, people you know, people you don’t know, people you care about, people you don’t care about. People you love and people you hate.

My feeling alone is almost at a close, and I must say that I feel a little split between it being a waste and it feeling like what my soul needed; moments to sit back and take a mental inventory. Time to reflect on my life and bounce ideas off of myself.

Maybe it is that I miss being in love

Maybe I miss all of the comfort that it comes with. I miss the small nuances and epic emotions that flood my being. I miss having the certainty that being in love provides. I miss the sanctuary it gives. I miss the holding hands… I’m afraid I’ve grown to fear love and those fishing with it’s utterance. I am afraid that I might never know what being in love again is. Maybe nobody ever really does; or maybe it’s just that love is so different from one person to the next.



Ahhh lonliness brings such lonesome feelings ...

With or without you...

Have you ever felt that you want to be with someone but at the same time you cannot.
Lots of reasons stands there … oh well just a passing by thought I cannot specify more…

See the stone set in your eyes

See the thorn twist in your side

I wait for you

Sleight of hand and twist of fate

On a bed of nails she makes me wait

And I wait without you

With or without you

Through the storm we reach the shore

You give it all but I want more

And Im waiting for you

With or without you

With or without you

I cant live

With or without you

And you give yourself away

My hands are tied

My body bruised, shes got me with

Nothing to win and

Nothing left to lose

With or without you

I cant live

With or without you

Lyrics by U2

Life goes on!!!

So You lose someone so dear …so what life goes on!
You lost your money in bad business….so what life goes on!
You favorite team lost the game… so what life goes on!
You drop ketchup on your favorite dress… life goes on!
You didn’t pass the exam…life goes on!
You break up with your love one…life goes on!

The common comment that people leave….
But On the other hand

You see innocent people dying everyday…
Destruction within human hands
Sick children starving …
Hypocrites ruling the world…
Abhorrence and hatred among us…
Disasters and catastrophes…
Crimes Rape and murder …
Drugs, violence, diseases…


I wonder if life still goes on?
Is it Fair?

November thoughts...My time of year

Actually the word of it sounds so gloomy and blue, fall can be depressing to some people but it isn’t for me and sometimes a smile hides a deep sorrow and not vice versa have you thought of it?

blue feelings hovers around in a smooth way Maybe it’s the cold hard rain that comes and goes; in between, distant voices.

Life is such a quirky clutter of impressions, sublime simples,flowing to and from, from breath to death, elusive as mountains,as solid as the wind - never centered. Pieces upon pieces,moans and groans, songs and sighs, till we leave alone.

I wish I could hug you
Sing you a song
Make you laugh
And void the sadness in your eyes

When I look into your eyes

I can see a love restrained

But darlin' when I hold you

Don't you know I feel the same

'Cause nothin' lasts forever

And we both know hearts can change

And it's hard to hold a candle

In the cold November rain.

- Guns N' Roses, November Rain

I love November Like I love you, Like thunder that’s hidden by night like lightening I’m suddenly Bright :)
• Facts:

• November begins in western tropical astrology with the sun in the sign of Scorpio which is my sign and ends in the sign of Sagittarius Astronomically speaking, the sun actually begins in the constellation of Libra , passes through Scorpius from approximately the 24th through the 29th and ends in the constellation of Ophiuchus, which is the only zodiacal constellation that is not associated with an astrological sign

• November begins on the same day of the week as March every year and also February except in leap years

• November in Northen Hemisphere is the seasonal equivalant to May in the Southern Hemisphere and vice versa.
  

I was born in November what a bless , maybe that’s why I’m so fond of it

Happy Blessed November everyone :)

The Rain did come

I love the rain. The sound of it tapping on the roofs and windows
The smell of it emerging with the earth…the color of it on tress grass and flowers
The spirit it gives when feeling down. The good it makes when washing away the pain
The rain did come for once rightly, the rain did come…

Kiss the rain

Whenever you need me

Kiss the rain Whenever I'm gone, too long.

If your lips Feel lonely and thirsty

Kiss the rain And wait for the dawn.

Keep in mind We're under the same sky

And the nights As empty for me, as for you

If ya feel You can't wait till morinin'

Kiss the rain

الله يبعت الخير

A day in the Park ( Cismigiu )

In the heart of the Romanian Capital Bucharest lays a large oasis the( Cismigiu Park) it is known as the oldest public park in Bucharest. Modeled on the Parisian Jardin des Plantes by German Carl Meyer in 1830, with alleys surrounding a nice lake which features a enchanting water-fountain and boat-renting the park is split into a formal section and a romantic section. It is also known as the Lovers' park. because its considered a place of meeting for lovers any pair of lovers have kissed at least once on the lover-ally unfortunately I haven’t capture any photos of young lovers kissing for it was too rude for me to intrude :)

I’m actually in love with this park and I go there often with a book and my Ipod just relaxing on bench surrounded by those pretty gardens with plenty of flowers, trees, and wonderful foliage. You might close your eyes. Or watch the passers-by. Or the old people chatting or the lovers. Or play chess. Or even have a drink and a bite to eat in a terrace on the miniature lake.

For my luck this time I encountered 2 pairs of new weds on a photo session, for its kind of new trend to take your wedding photos in the park surrounded by trees fountains and flowers. I snicked around and took a photo but please excuse my lousy resolution because I took the shoots with my mobile phone cam.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/93315071@N00/238726186/

another pairs rushing to the party :)

http://www.flickr.com/photos/93315071@N00/238726189/

And as I walk around I hear this beautiful music playing on the other side of the park so me and my curious nose approach the spot where the music is coming from. And find a little square where a little band formed of a guitar player and accordion player performing a rhythmatic tango and young and elder couples dancing with eurhythmic steps I was content and so stirred away watching those couples dancing and listings to the nice music.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/93315071@N00/238726192/

http://sassy79.jeeran.com/dance2.JPG

http://sassy79.jeeran.com/dance1.JPG

well i had just another wonderful day in the Park

الله ينصركن

لبنان قلوبنا و عقولنا معك
يارب احمي أهلنا بلبنان وكل بلد بينذكر فيه اسمك
يارب كون معنا ولا تكن علينا و وفقنا لنفعل كل ما نستطيع من أجل نصرة اخوننا و اهلنا بكل بقاع الأرض

Lebanon in Our heart

6.6.6

Yea today is 06-06-06 pretty scary huh
Well this date wont repeat again ya33ny for so so so long time every ( 100 years )
I’m not sure if I should consider it a special good day or not
But there’s hundreds of stories related to that scary number
I’m not going into details about it because I’m sure that most of you are familiar with it plus I’m too sleepy to write more…

Anyways today 06-06-06 is the opening of the new remake of The Omen movie world wild ,I remember the old one , it was pretty good. lets hope the new one is as good as the old.

And one more thing here’s a cool link about the 666myth
Enjoy and have a Happy 06-06-06 day all.

A new family member

I introduce you “Lady” my new puppy
She’s A Siberian Husky

Isn’t she Lovable

No title

So I went out of new thoughts even thou my blog is newly launched
If I may say launched….Okay not that I went out of thoughts completely
Is just that I write my posts on Word Documents before publishing and I go through them like hundreds of times to make sure they are okay to be published…call me weird but I do that…there’s like 3 new threads ready to be posted but hell knows why I haven’t yet.


Anyway what I really want to write about today is LUCK
Sometimes I believe that luck is borne with the person, so if you aren’t born with luck you’ll never be lucky for the rest of your life, not that I consider my self lucky but also unlucky.
Okay I know that sounds controversial

Tell you how

I’m lucky because I breathe, see, smell, feel, hear, walk, Simply lucky because I’m alive
I’m lucky because I have the greatest parents
I’m lucky because I was raised in a fine open way
I’m lucky because I had good education
I’m lucky because nothing was missing from my life
I’m lucky that I have good friends surrounding me
I’m lucky that people around me tend to love me and like me immediately ( قريبة على القلب )

On the other hand

I’m unlucky because I live in a terrible routine
I’m unlucky because I leave chances pass through me without taking any actions
I’m unlucky because I hesitate a lot
I’m unlucky because I thought I found my other half and then lost it.
I’m unlucky because I haven’t won the lottery hehe
I’m unlucky because I simply feel unlucky…errrrr

Someone said "It's better to be lucky than smart."

Well I consider that a stupid a steatment because a smart person is lucky because he simply knows how to take the opportunities, Lucky people make effective decisions by listening to their intuition and gut feelings which also make them smart. …but what if that smart person had an accident and died?

Is he considered unlucky???
No because that was his fate

So what I was saying a while ago that people are borne lucky is false because you make your own luck in life.

At least that is what I think…I don’t know about the rest of you


Oh yea I forgot to mention that I met another blogger yea call me an active lol
Well we were supposed to go to the movies to watch Memories of a Geisha but the period of the film show was over and they replaced it with the Pink Panther which It doesn’t deserve to pay 150 S.P to watch it, Not that we haven’t seen Memories of a Giesha, but one of us saw it on a mini screen on the airplane which it wasn’t very satisfactory. Anyway I’m sure he’ll Find it on DVD soon.

So we decided to have a cup of coffee…had a lovely conversation then we walked a bit
I have to say that I had a good Time…thanks for the lovely time Sam


Shu Kaman???

Tomorrow Thursday on MBC 4 they are showing a U2 Vertigo 2005 concert my all time favorite rock band
So who’s interested don’t forget to watch it, its on 11 PM Syrian time...as for those who can not watch it Sorry you’ll miss because U2 ROCKS.

That’s all …

Now the Big Q is how come did I post this thread directly without going through it a hundred time ??

Back to Reality...

Eh my time in Romania was over and had to go back to reality
I must say bitter reality…yes it will sound weird coming out of me
But it’s the truth, I sensed the air of my country right there at Bucharest airport
My flight was so early in the morning so I had to be at the airport around 2 AM
And since it was so early, no other flights were at that time except for the Syrian air.
Meanwhile Syrian people were gathering at the balance for weighting their luggage’s
pushing and shouting like the plane is going to fly with out them, some family with 3 persons had luggage that weighted over 160 kg knowing that their limit of belongings is 65 kg, so what! they happen to be some relatives of the guy in charge there and got all their 160kg on the plane !! At the check point there’s this yellow line which you stand at for your turn…eh in vain was that line there! my dear people were racing who will get there the 1st …when the officer working there said please one by one and wait your turn at the yellow line!!! Why couldn’t we be discipline?? Why can’t we wait in turns?? Furthermore at the boarding again the same pushing and racing to be the 1st.
Men wouldn’t let women pass before them, not even women with babies!!!
At the check point at Damascus Airport the officers talking in a so rude and arrogant manner. where’s The “ good morning Ma’am” the “ welcome back” the “have a pleasant flight” the “ thank you”.
Its really hurting when you see other countries so refined and people so good behaving
Why? Why can’t we be civilized ??